Shades of gray:part of growing up

All your life you want so many things. There have been times when we have wanted crazy things like may be the moon... I remember as a kid, I wanted to go out and help the construction workers build the house.... crazy idea even to think about it now. Then there have been times when in the middle of the night I have wanted to go out and eat a bucketful of chocolate strawberry ice cream all by myself until I hit my teens.... and then suddenly, ice-cream and chocolates were poison. Suddenly, I found, I was trying hard to be part of this group of girls in my high school, who claimed hey were the coolest. When I was not a part of that group or the geeks, I became withdrawn. Until I got into my twenties.
When we grow older, something in us grows cold. There is a warmth that dies away. You try to look back at and hear a cold sigh... ahh, the crazy things that you did and thought as a child, and it is hard to get a glimpse of it not to say the vision becomes hazy. As kids, simple things like watching a Tom and Jerry cartoon used to bring smiles to our faces. As we grow older, vicious gossip makes us happy. Seeing someone fall down on the ice makes u suddenly snicker. In other words, instead of enjoying simple pleasures of life and little things in the world making us happy, we become more vicious. What creates this bitterness in man ?
As little children we are made to believe there are certain things that are good and certain things that are bad. As we grow older, we realize there is no black and white. There lie shades of gray everywhere. If only the shades of gray could vanish, and I could see the world in black and white, I think the world will be such a better place to live in. If only I could find that missing child in me.......